... bahala kayo basahin to...

waa!!! i wanna die!!! malas na buhay to!!! first... may nagsabi na pupunta sya... then... may isa pang nagsabing pupunta sya... then tinext ni marianne {ay nako!!! see?! sayo lang nagreply!!! kasi masama sya!!! ugh!!!} at tinanong kung nasan sya... then nagreply na NANDUN SYA SA ROB... {at nandun din kami sa rob nun!!!} then tinanong ng aking GREAT FRIENDS {haha...} kung nasan sya sa rob... sumagot na nandun daw sya sa timezone, sa taas... at tinakot ako nila marianne at len na iiwan nila ako mag-isa dun sa may tokyo tokyo... {at syempre sumunod naman ako sa kanila kahit labag sa kalooban ko... dahil ang second greatest fear ko is BEING ALONE... by the way, my greatest fear is being alone IN THE DARK... coz i tend to imagine crazy, scary things...} back to the story... edi un nga... nandun daw sya sa taas... pumunta kami... i saw him... then... then naglaro kami ni len ng air hockey sa timezone sa baba... ang lakas ko tumama sa puck!!! kasi... ung puck... color yellow... which is the color din of his t-shirt... then nung umakyat kami... kinausap ng mom ni immy si immy... then, after nila mag-usap, sinabi samin ni immy na ang isang part daw ng glorietta e pinasabog... then maglalaro dapat kami ni len nung race na game beside nung basketball na game sa timezone sa taas... while naghihintay kami matapos ung currently nag-lalaro... nagmura ung naglalaro sa harapan ko... medyo nagside view ako para mapaharap kay len tapos sabi ko "kasaya..." kaso nakita ko sa aking peripheral vision sya!!! balik ako sa pagkakaharap ko dun sa nagmurang naglalaro e!!! natameme pa ako!!! hindi ako nakapagsalita e!!! then... nung paalis na si immy... may pinapasabi sya samin kay edzel... so pinuntahan namin si edzel sa netspeed... tapos {hindi ko talaga napansin before ako pumasok dun sa loob!!!} nandun sya sa left ni edzel!!! kaya dun ako tumayo sa left ni len {si len e nasalikod ni edzel} e!!! haay..
i learned one very important lesson today... BE CAREFUL OF WHAT YOU WISH FOR... FOR IT CAN BITE YOU IN THE BUTT WHEN IT HAPPENS...

people...

is it bad to hide how much you really hurt under a veil of smiles, laughter and happiness so that no one would notice???

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_
just because my eyes dont shed tears

doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry...

just because i come out strong

doesn't mean nothing's wrong...

often, i choose to pretend that im happy so that

i dont have to explain myself to people who'll never understand...

smiling has always been easier than

explaining why im sad...

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_

october 15...

today...

i know why i was particularly good at some parts of the day...

why i felt that i was forgetting something...

why i couldn't sleep last night...

and why i felt something when i saw that butterfly... {marianne, do you remember???}

it's all because...

its my departed dad's birthday...

sorry papa...

i forgot that it's your birthday today...

sorry...

malas...

minsan... talagang minamalas ang mga tao sa buhay... marami nagiging problema... maraming kailangang gawin... at itong araw na ito... isa dun!!!

ang daming assignments...

ang sakit ng feet ko...

ayaw magreply ng isang tao...

kailangan ko pang gumawa ng reviewers ko dahil malapit na quarterly exams...

malapit na ang quarterly exams...

ayaw magreply ng isang tao...

sa tuesday na quarterly sa PE at Health...

hindi ko pa manlang nababasa ung handouts sa PE at Health...

ayaw magreply ng isang tao...

hindi pa ako nakakapanuod ng "I've Fallen For You"...

pati ng "Nancy Drew"...

at ayaw parin magreply ng isang tao...

malas noh?!

another story...

There was a girl. She loved someone. Someone very special. This guy, one day, confided to her that he loved someone else. His words broke her heart. As the days passed, she saw him with the one he liked. Even though it hurts her really bad, she still felt happy because she is seeing the guy she liked happy, even though with somebody else, not her. She vowed that even though this guy is breaking her heart, she would continue loving him because she knows that in love, and even life, we must sacrifice to make the people we love happy, even though it's hard or hurts us so much, we must because it's the right thing to do. She also knew that love is nothing without pain for pain makes us realize that our love is true.

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_

Kahit na tumingin ka sa iba

Magmahal ka ng iba

Magbubulag-bulagan ako

Masakit man ito dito sa puso ko

~Dahil Mahal Na Mahal Kita by Rachelle Ann Go~

.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

Kung alam mo lang kung gano kita kamahal
Nagtitiis, nagdurusa sa twing kapiling mo sya
Kung alam mo lang na mahal na mahal kita

~Kung Alam Mo Lang by Rachelle Ann Go~

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_